I remember walking into my first rehab. The first thing they tell you from day one – there is a 10% success rate at best. You’re doomed before you even get through the doors. You’re expected to fail. And in rehabs, they don’t just tell you something once. They tell you every single day.
Fucked from day one.
The next thing you learn is that your life as you know it, is never going to be the same. That you will never be able to have another drink, or whatever your vice. That if you do, you will fall, forever sliding faster down that slippery slope towards your doom. That you can’t have just one, because if you do, you can’t stop.
Just ranting…
Unfortunately, this is also drilled into you from day one – and repeated for the next 28 days or however long your insurance will pay the bill.
So when that day comes to become part of the statistic, you are already conditioned to believe that you’re going to fail, and when you do you can’t stop.. In my head, it seemed only logical that when I mess up, might as well go out with a bang.
Now how does that help anyone?
Also this idea of throwing all the drug addicts and alcoholics (why the distinction anyhow?) into one room, shaking it up and seeing what happens is an odd notion. My best drug connections were made in rehabs…
