Caffeine… a sneaky bastard

I woke up tired again this morning. There’s been a few of these mornings, but I’ve figured out ways to combat the downward trajectory this could put me on. Luckily…

But that’s not ideal. I don’t want to have to play “catch up”… Which essentially boils down to (what I think of as) doing extra credit in health class..

When you wake up bouncing out of your bed, “at the crack” as they say… Those days make everything worthwhile. Make life exciting. If you’re not excited about life, don’t worry. It’s simple (and sarcastic). But really, start doing things that make it exciting to you. You’ll need to be your own catalyst at first, but momentum builds upon itself. You’ll be cruising in no time…

Somehow, I figured out how to achieve such amazing mornings, day after day. I thought…

Note taking skills

Since making better decisions in general, but specifically about my health, I have become much more aware of my body, my mind, and my soul (and thus, others too…. more aware of other souls too). It’s such a gift. So I’ve experimented with various things.. Different kinds of exercise, different types of foods, coffee, iced tea, etc, different types of meditation, or breathing, or recreational activities. Different types of people.. It’s a blast. Like being a teenager all over again, but this time mentally writing down better notes..

I immediately know if what I’m putting in my body is bad for me. Almost instantly. Whether it’s a drug, alcohol, food, spice, sugar, caffeine, and so on. For example, I can’t drink coffee. One cup makes me jittery to all hell. It just doesn’t feel good. I love coffee… Even more so now, but I can’t really drink it. Even decaf can cause issues.

People can cause issues too.. Negativity feeds off negativity. So you just gotta recognize it and feed it no more.. And sometimes that means just getting away from certain people. That’s okay though.. They’re operating on a different wavelength or vibration or frequency is all… If you are meant to interact with this person, your vibrations will start matching again…

People are generally cool

So I write a lot in bars or restaurants because most of the day, my daughters are in school. I don’t really like being alone that much anymore. Sure, some alone time is good. I get plenty. But even if my head is down in front of this laptop (like while writing this post), I’d rather be in a room with other people, then in my garage alone. What ends up happening usually is that I meet at least one new person every day now. It’s really cool. And like I’ve said before, most people are awesome. Everyone really is… Just, sometimes the packaging is hard to ignore…

Whether I’m writing or just talking to people, I’m usually at the bar for awhile. Naturally, I don’t want to drink alcohol this whole time, so I started ordering iced teas. Which was great at first. Gave me some energy while I wrote, and while I ate food. But I loose track of how many I’ve had, especially while I’ve got my head in my laptop, writing away (I get in a zone sometimes). You see how sneaky this is?

I was literally trying to be more healthy.. But then this morning, I connected the dots… Soon realizing I was ingesting too much caffeine (despite it being milder than coffee). Last night I couldn’t sleep.. I couldn’t figure it out.. because just a couple weeks ago, I was asleep the second I put my head on my pillow. I was awake because, not only had I drank several iced teas throughout the day, I also had one at dinner. Probably around 8pm. It kept me up.

Sleep is so necessary

I’ll eventually fall asleep, but it will be a light sleep, and I’ll wake up to any noise, numerous times throughout the night. I wake up feeling tired…. slow…

Luckily, I recognized this change in myself right away and purely just by listening to my body, I learned how to get myself out of this funk. But I didn’t know why it was happening exactly… Until this morning..

Now we test

There could be other factors, or I could just be flat out wrong about what is causing my lack of sleep, and my morning funks. So I want to find out.. Besides, caffeine isn’t really good for me anyhow, so putting a stop to caffeine is a quick way to find out if I’m right or not.

If I’m right, I should start getting more rest, falling asleep quicker. In hopes that that will return my mornings to what they used to be until recently… Bouncing out of bed, beaming with hope and awe and confidence. I still have a lot of those feelings when I get up.. I just don’t bounce out of bed.. and the feelings are not nearly as amplified as usual.

If I’m wrong, than I’ll have to think about what else could be causing this… (my physical activities… my diet… my thyroid levels… etc).

I want my mornings back.. Pls… and thank you very much.

Will keep you posted…